Becoming a mother for the first time has been one of the most indescribable feelings ever. It is not easy. There are many challenges. Yet everything about parenting has been so rewarding. I’m always happy when I see Emilia learn something new. I want her to take in as much as she can. With us not having too many kids her age to have play dates with, I was looking for some sort of activity class or gymnastics to enroll her in. I thought something like that would be fun and beneficial for her. A few weeks ago my coworker mentioned to me that he and his wife take their daughter to a “Parent and Tot” class once a week. Of course I was interested. So this past Monday we took her to her first trial class. At first she was shy. She eventually knew that it was her playtime and she was trying the different courses and having such a blast. There were also other kids there to which I hope she feels more comfortable around as we attend more classes. Oh! She also received a stamp for completing the class. She didn’t show her excitement for the stamp at the class but when we got home she was extremely excited about her stamp!
I was a very shy child growing up. I was afraid to make friends. I still feel that timid shy little girl in my present time. I don’t want Emilia to be shy and afraid to make friends or meet new people. So I hope this class and the friends she makes helps to promote her social skills. Also, with us wanting to enroll her into preschool when she turns 3-4. I know being in a learning environment will help her!
I am sitting here at my computer at work. I have felt this immense amount of emotion this morning. Actually at this very moment I am feeling the need to cry. Maybe it’s the fact that I feel overwhelmed? I k now I have been thinking about the future often. I love being a mother, it can get very exhausting sometimes, but I love it. With the 7 ½ months of being a mother I realized the most important thing to have is support, patience, and love. I couldn’t do this on my own. My family has played such a great role in helping to take care and raise Emilia.. Even with all of the help I still find myself overwhelmed sometimes. There are days when I feel like super mom followed by days when I feel like super crappy. No matter what, I always make sure I am mommy first. Working full time and being a mommy isn’t easy. I find myself exhausted by the end of most days. There was even a day when I had to ask for a day off just to sleep in the next day.
With becoming a mom I am starting to see the importance of taking care of yourself too. When I was single, no children, no attachments – I understood the importance of loving yourself. You know, single, no one to tell you that you’re beautiful every day. So of course, I worked on loving myself more and making sure I felt confident in myself in everything I did. Then I became a mom and I realize that I need to take care of myself. Between work, taking care of Emilia, and taking care of every other part of my adult life – I needed to find a balance. I needed to find outlets to let out my frustrations. I needed to get back to eating healthy and getting fit. It is essential for me to make sure that I am in tip-top shape. Why? Simply because I am a mom. I want to be in my best physical, mental, and spiritual condition because I want to make sure that Emilia gets the best of me.
I’m still new to motherhood. I’m learning as I go as well as getting advice from family and friends. At the end of the day I want to be the best mother I can for Emilia. Lately I have been going to the gym on the weekends. Last weekend I didn’t miss a day. It felt amazing. I noticed my overall mood was much happier. I wasn’t tired. I had the energy to do so much. At the moment I am trying to establish a good gym schedule for during the week. It feels good to write again. Though ‘writing’ has taken another meaning with the popularity of blogging, but nonetheless the concept is the same. The best way for me to express myself is through my writing and I haven’t been able to do much of it. So this right here, this post, feels amazing.
I was chosen to be your mommy. Forever I will be your mommy. I will go to the ends of the earth to defend my right to be your mommy. I will protect you to the best of my abilities because I am your mommy. When you have your first booboo I will be there to kiss it and make it better, because I am your mommy. As your mommy I will love you through the good, the bad, and the ugly. As your mommy I will pray for you every morning and night. As your mommy I will look to the Lord to guide you through this world. I will try my best to protect you from the Devils in this world because I am your mommy. I will be your shield in times of hardship because I am your mommy. As your mommy I will practice unconditional love. As your mommy I will teach you how to be a strong woman, an intelligent and witty woman, and a woman of God.
And just like how I’ll always be your mommy, you will always be my babygirl.