My daughter is BLACK

My daughter is Asian and black. You might only see black. You might be turned away from the color of her skin or the texture of her hair – she’s black. You might be so driven from your unexplainable hatred for who she is, black. You might want to discriminate against her because of who she is, black. You might feel the urge to beat her, shoot her, slice her throat on the BART station in Oakland because of who she is, black. But just like your daughter, niece, granddaughter, mother, sister, she’s human. Just those women in your life, she’s loved. Just like those women, she has a future to look forward to.

Pay no mind to her, I don’t even care if you completely ignore her, just please don’t hurt my daughter because she’s, black. My daughter, she’s black. My daughter is just walking to school, if she’s in your way kindly ask her to move. My daughter, she’s black. My daughter, she’s just trying to learn in the same classroom as your white daughter. My daughter, she’s black. My daughter, is only trying to sell some lemonade this summer to buy some new toys. My daughter, she’s black. My daughter is no lesser than you. My daughter who is black is stronger and better than a person with your level of hate.

My daughter, who is black, will love people of all colors. My daughter will only judge a person on their merits, character, morals, and virtue. My daughter will not be ashamed of her beautiful brown skin and curly hair. My daughter will be resilient in the face of adversity. My daughter will be a voice for those who are too scared to stand up for themselves. My daughter is black and I will go to the ends of the earth to let every color hating, race discriminating, man or woman know that my daughter deserves to live and exist in this world no matter how much they cannot stand the color of her skin or the texture of her hair.

New Year, New Age

Hello New Year, Hello new age!

It’s now 2018. I didn’t do anything exciting on NYE. My fiancé, daughter, and sister stayed home. I backed some siracha and honey chicken wings and a cake. All in all, it was a good NYE. For a moment I did wonder what it would be like to be celebrating at a club or at a party but just the thought of dressing up, wearing heels, in the cold, uncomfortable didn’t sound fun. Maybe it did 4 years ago, but I just get so exhausted just thinking about having to dress up.

I’m also 26 today(Jan. 2). I don’t feel 26. Not because it’s just another year older, but with how crazy 2017 was I’m just so thankful to be able to have survived another year. I don’t feel necessarily older. I cannot say I’m super excited or anything. I think this is how other people feel when they say their birthday is just another day. I’ve always been a person excited to celebrate birthdays, perhaps because it wasn’t my birthday. I also haven’t had much luck with executing the perfect plan for my birthday celebrations either, so I know that partly explains my lack of enthusiasm for today. Furthermore there’s a lot of uncertainty still in my life. I know I need to live in the present more and I do most of the time. During high stressful or sensitive events in my life make it hard for me to always just live in the present. One day I hope to write a book and have a it published because I feel like I have so much to say. I know one or two people out there must be able to relate to me. I’m 26. Wow.. seriously as I am typing this post I am getting more and more excited. Thanks blogging!

There’s so much I am looking forward to and have plans for during the next few years. With my reconnection to God and Jesus Christ I feel so much more able and want to work more on walking with faith and conviction. 2017 has been a year of prayer, rebuilding my faith, and understanding that God has a plan for my life. I may not understand His plan.  I may want to fight against His plan for my life but I know he will not abandon me or forsake me. I cannot express to you how much God has been so good to me. Sometimes things happen to us or we put ourselves in situations where we feel hopeless. Like there is absolutely no one or nothing that we can go to or turn to that will make us feel better. I found God again and with how everything played out –none of it was easy of course- I still found a way to thank God. He doesn’t give us what we deserve. He is merciful. With that, I have also learned to live by prayer and some words of the Bible. Any time I felt myself feeling drained or uncertain, I would open up my Bible and read a verse or look back on my notes from Sunday church and recite the verse. All glory is to God for how much I, along with my family, were able to overcome.

To close all I want to say is live your best life. It is tough. I’m not going to pretend I’m the most calm and positive person on the planet but I know that we are only human. We must fight for what we believe in and stand up for ourselves. Please don’t let life and the situations we are in, whether you go yourself into or you were brought into, dictate your quality of life. Find your center, whether it be with your religion, hobby, family, etc. bring yourself to that center and remember our life can improve. My center happens to be God. Not just my religion but my relationship with God and Jesus Christ. All I want to do is live my best life and to make sure my daughter and hopefully, God allowing, our future children live their best lives.

From the bottom of my heart: S.S-J

BTW the chicken recipe I found on Pinterest was DE-LI-CIOUS! I’ll attach the link. Enjoy!

Sweet and Spicy Sriracha Baked Chicken Wings